Saturday, January 30, 2010

A Story about a Boy Hero ... based on a true story

Tribute to ‘The Hero’ - Dr. Mas Afzal

A shocking news from Yahya and Zaim just arrived. Mas is coming home for good tomorrow. I hope it is a good news. I pray it is a good news. But life is not a bed of roses all the time. Mas is probably not only returning to Malaysia, he will also return to the mercy of the Almighty sooner than an average man does.

I quote an article from his blog ( under the title ‘Time to Say Goodbye’ which was posted on the 26th January 2010:
“My life is indeed, not a primrose path.

After successfully completing my high dose chemotherapy and autologous transplant back in November, I had a scan and a neck biopsy to monitor my progress from treatment. The results of my scan and biopsy came out last week, and it was obviously not what I'd hoped for.

My cancer has relapsed, yet again. And it is still the same type of cancer, ie Hodgkin's lymphoma. Not only was it found on my neck, the cancer is also detected at the liver and my pelvic bone, suggesting the aggressive nature of the disease. The prognosis, is really not good.

My doctor felt that the cancer is almost non responsive to the chemotherapy and transplant. He believes that we are reaching a dead end in terms of further curative treatment options.”

In describing Mas, I can’t find the best word. I really can’t. He is imaginary. What he had done to the ummah in his young age is beyond my thought. To find a great young man like him nowadays is unlikely. I am hoping and praying he can live longer because he is a type of person whom the ummah really need today. He is a model leader. He is a role model for youngsters.

I remember meeting Mas for the first time back in my post-KYUEM days. It was in the Muslim Overseas Camp (MOC) 2006. He was my group’s facilitator back then. From that day onward, we have been working together, hand in hand, in assisting the KYUEM’s juniors to understand their god-serving life. At that time, he was expecting me to join him in UK, which I unfortunately, failed to do so. But we never miss the chance of meeting up if he is in Malaysia.

I never forget his word of encouragement to me when I wrote ‘Warkah Dzulaikha’ after my A-level result was out. ‘Faisal Tehrani to be’ was quite exaggerating; nevertheless it was pleasing and somehow inspiring. It motivated me when I was at my low point. So, for me, to describe him as ‘Dr Fadzilah Kamsah to be’ might be true at the time. I was not exaggerating at all when I state that. His potential is far beyond the well-known motivator. Mas always be the place for me to seek advices from.

The news I heard from Zaffan last year, on his level 3 cancer was hardly accepted. I told Bonzer about the news. He also found it difficult to swallow. He respects the man a lot. He told me how Mas woke up early in the morning, hiking hill of Sheffield to perform the Subh Prayer in the prayer room in congregation. He told me about Mas’s appearance in UK’s radio talk show. He told me how good Mas’s English is. I have to admit, at the moment, my feeling mixed up. I started to know Mas better. Parts of me were really jealous of him and his achievement. I envy him. I want to be like him. The other parts of me mourned the great loss the ummah are going to face if the situation gets worse.

Remembering few of our last encounters not so long ago, just before his convocation, Mas told me about his dream of working as a doctor in KL. He applied to have his posting in KL although his family is in Sabah. His main reason if I am not mistaken, is to continue giving his service for the KYUEMers. He recapped on how KYUEM changed his life. So he planned to give back what he got. (SubhanAllah, how noble your intention is, Mas! For the second time, I envy you). KYUEM is always in his heart. However that dream was yet to be fulfilled. Human propose, Allah disposes.

After Mas return’s to Sheffield for his convocation, he was destined to stay there due to his health condition. He needed to have further treatment there. His dream of doing his medical posting in KL shattered. I heard he had his posting there too. And tomorrow, he is returning to Malaysia, a bit later than expected. And it is not the return I was expecting.

Mas’s life journey teaches me much, too much to mention. Despite his harsh life, he never stops giving advices to others. He always reminds others of Allah. He is an exemplary young man to follow in many aspects of life; pure-hearted, strong will, dedication, leadership. Let the spirit of Mas live inside us. Let us continue the work of Mas.

‘O Allah, bless this young man with the best rewards there is for him, if a prolonged life is the best for him, bless upon him with that, for You are the best giver ’

Mas! If you are reading my post, please know that I really appreciate what you have done, you have changed my life. Knowing you is one of the greatest gifts Allah has given me. Please know that I am always by your side in your fight. My prayer will always be with you. Never stop hoping for Allah has the power to make anything impossible possible. I hope that you are always strong in facing this test. Last but not least, please know that I always look up to you, because you are my hero!!! (I would like to dedicate Mariah Carey’s ‘Hero’ to you, listen to it if you have the chance)

Mas’s last speech in Sheffield:

Mariah Carey - Hero

There's a hero if you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid of what you are.
There's an answer if you reach into your soul
and the sorrow that you know will melt away

And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.

So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.

It's a long road when you face the world alone,
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold.
You can find love if you search within yourself
and the emptiness you felt will disappear.

And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.

So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.

oh....Lord knows dreams are hard to follow,
But don't let anyone tear them away.
Hold on, there will be tomorrow,
In time you'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.

So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you
that a hero lies in ... you
mmmm that a hero lies

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Favourite quotes i came across in my past years...

Assalamu 'Alaikum and good day to all

It has been more than 22 years i have been living in this glorious planet. In the 22 years of my life I came across several quotes that really inspired me and put them in some of my artworks. so i would like to share with you guys the inspiring quotes :

Lao Tzu : "A leader is best when people barely know he exists, when his work is done, his aim fulfilled, they will say : we did it ourselves."

Kenneth Blanchard : "The key to successful leadership today is influence, not autorithy.

Rosabeth Moss Kantor : "Leaders are more powerful role models when they learn than when they teach."

Stephen R. Covey : "Management is efficiency in climbing the ladder of success; leadership determines whether the ladder is leaning against the right wall."

Malcolm X : “The future belongs to those who prepare for it today.”

Martin Luther King Jr. : “An individual has not started living until he can rise above the narrow confines of his individualistic concerns to the broader concerns of all humanity.”

Benjamin Franklin : “An investment in knowledge always pays the best interest.”

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Impian Abdullah Impian Aku Jua!

"Aku sangat inginkan nyawa sebanyak helaian rambut di kepalaku, kemudian engkau membunuh aku sebanyak helaian rambut itu" - Abdullah bin Huzafah ra

Aku teringin sangat mati syahid Ya Allah seperti mana Abdullah ketika ditawan oleh tentera Romawi...

Aku tahu mati syahid itu sungguh indah Ya Allah, bahkan seperti Abdullah, aku inginkan syahid berkali-kali...

Aku berdoa padamu agar kau tunaikanlah permintaanku ini...amin

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

History of Electrical Network

1882 - The first electrical network
- Pearl Street Station, NYC
- by Thomas Edison
- DC
- Lighting lower Manhattan area
- Underground cables

- Water wheel driven generator was invented
- Appleton, Wisconsin

- DC : Short distance -> excessive power loss at low voltage

1885 - William Stanley invented transformer
- raise AC for transmission & distribution

1888 - Tesla invented induction motor

1888-1893 - first single phase AC system
- Oregon City
- 2x300hp water wheel turbines
- 4kv to Portland

1893 - 1st 3-phase
- 2.3kV
- South California Edison Company

1893-1969 - frequency varied from 25Hz-133Hz
- however due to interconnection, US & Canada fixed 60Hz while Europe;50Hz

1969 - EHV; 765kV commercially used

1970 - Pacific Intertie (Oregon-California)
- 400kV
- 850 miles